Today was like nothing, just something that passed me by.
It feels for me like time is just something totally irrelevant, and non-meaningful nowadays.
Why is that? Is it because I sleep a lot?
I don't know.
Often I just feel want the day to end, for something new to come and strike me hard, make me actually achieve something, something other than just the poor life im living.
And all this crap with money... I do hate money, more than I love it.
Because money is always such a problem.
One can't even get a good job, you're stuck with sh*t, and that sucks.

I really want to transform in some ways, start out fresh,  and maybe let go of a lot, but I really dont know how to do that, its just that.
I really dont know how I could get such a big thing done, and actually succeed in doing it to.
I'm too much for failing.

But hell, I'm not gonna sit here and feel bad for myself. I have the same opportunities as anyone else.
So, Mick, get a hold of yourself, find a  proper job, and learn to live.

"we're going to win, put your troubles behind you and go on to bed"